I've become addicted to murder podcasts in recent weeks. This is quite strange as I've always been super paranoid about murder and rape. That could be because I grew up in a delightful but strange suburb in Brisbane. My suburb occasionally contained naked (and high) humans sleeping on front porches. This isn't murder – but you get the idea.
I guess interest peaked back when I was listening to Serial. Then Making of a Murderer upped my interest in murder cases in general. Also shone a massive and frankly horrifying light on how messed up some justice systems are.
Up until a few days ago, I wasn't anymore paranoid than normal. Possibly because everything I had been watching or listening to had been in America. Don't get me wrong, I'm aware that not all murder happens in America.
Then Trace came along.
Trace is a podcast by the ABC that outlines some extremely messed up shit that surrounds the murder of a mother of two where she was stabbed 69 times (!!!!!!). This lovely act happened (many years ago) a mere 10 minute walk from my new house in Melbourne.
Sure, it was most likely someone she knew and wasn't a random attack, but fuck! It's so close! Now every time I drive past the house/shop front it gives me insane shivers.
This isn't even as bad as my paranoia gets. I mistakenly started another murder podcast called My Favourite Murder (thanks Liz!). This one talks about famous murders and known facts about those murders, but there is so many! This is where my paranoia exploded, yet I can’t stop listening!
I always had a crazy theory that would allow me to get to sleep at night. My theory was if someone was going to break into my house, then all they wanted to do was rob me. Which is fine, take what you want. As long as rape isn't on the cards - I'm all for it (normal, right?).
My thinking was there was easier ways to rape people if that's your thing, but no. A cold case (again !!!!) that this podcast talks about, where a guy breaks into couples houses and rapes the women. My theory got debunked - take a moment to freak out!
Any-who - please don't murder me.